i had to wait a little before I posted this becaus...

i had to wait a little before I posted this because I needed to make sure I healed a little (im okay now).
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I had a mental breakdown recently, very unexpectedly. Sometimes it just hits you out of no where and you feel every part of yourself breaking into pieces. I didn't know why but I shattered. And ironically at that moment, I just finished filming an M.C.R video & was pumped as hell! But right after I took off my wig and shawl, everything went downhill. I filmed this because I wanted to see what I look like while experiencing a mental breakdown (this video is just 5% of the breakdown).
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I burst into tears, my body was shaking, my chest felt heavy & my heart started pounding. I felt so lost and confused. It felt as if I was drowning so deep. I called someone I trusted & so much of pent-up emotions and feelings were released. I did NOT even know I had that much of blockages in my head and heart. I felt so much lighter. I looked at myself in the mirror and knew I regained a little strength back.
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I am sharing this so that you know one thing. EVERYONE, no matter how big, small or experienced, everyone goes through mental breakdowns. And it is nothing to be ashamed of. In fact, it is something to EMBRACE! It is only through mental breakdowns, we are able to release so much of what's bottled up within us, consciously or unconsciously. Please talk to someone you trust if you ever feel like you're shattering. A mental breakdown, fortunately is one of the best ways to heal, no matter how unpleasant it may be.
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I love you all. Stay safe and please drink a lot of water! It helps SO MUCH! ♥️

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